It was so hard for me to let go eight months ago. Thankfully I had a wonderfully patient midwife team and my 7lb baby girl was born healthy at home into her daddy’s hand after four weeks of varying stages of labor. It doesn’t take a big baby to tear — little one came hard and shoulders all at once and gave me a second degree.
I don’t know how I’ll face birth again if I do get pregnant sometime in the future. I do remember being in transition and thinking “This will be so much easier next time!” I suppose we will have to wait and see about that, but I will say that having succeeded before I trust my body so much more to do it again.
Thank you for sharing your story Jemima. Thank you for being open and honest. I hope women who are not yet mothers will read your words and embrace the powerful process of giving birth courageously in spite of fear. It’s an awesome experience.